Bakit ka mahihiyang gamitin ang salita ng iba kung sakto naman sa nais mo’ng sabihin?
Walang ibang nagmamay-ari ng iyong damdamin
kundi ikaw
Natatakot ka bang matawag na alingawngaw?
Di mo ba maatim manggaya?
Masyadong limitado ang mga salita.
Di natin mailalarawan ang kaliit-liitang pagkakaiba ng ating nararamdaman
kaya pagtiyagaan mo na lang
at tanggapin mo
minsan mga salita nati’y magkakapareho.
Kaya’t kung may awit na akma sa yo
Ibirit mo!
c",)
Standing in front of the mirror
naked
never liking what you see
break it
another seven years added to a lifetime of bad luck won’t matter anyway
i’m just food for the "gods"
they eat me alive
Exanimate but harnessed still
Can’t you trust me even in death?
Inanimate without your will
How you deny me my breath!
Steel coffin dipped in lead
So much for making my bed…
Nightshade over my grave
My soul remains enslaved.
Shadows dancing in my cave
Am i to be afraid.
There’s so much light,
i’ve lost sight of what’s right
What IS right?
My old hands will never learn,
Cut it off and let it burn
Watch it burn!
Sharp tongue will never stop,
Slice it off and chop
I know, i f*%&ed it up.
Hate what i"ve done, and hate the fact that it can’t be undone
Suffer the consequences of my stupidity
and mourn for the slow death that comes with betraying oneself
broken now…
broken forever
every single day that i was there…
i wished i were somewhere else
every single time i woke up…
i wished i were dreaming still
that was the darkest, most depressing time of my life
when everyday i felt i was about to die,
strapped on a chair, pissing on myself, trying so hard to pretend that i like it, oh how i like it!
i slept, i woke up, died all over again…
someday hoping that it will all end, and oh how i’d like it!
maybe at that time i was infected by an incurable strain of masochism, loving the pain but never having enough, begging for more, thanking the gods for the "gift" and cursing them after…
but no more…no more…
