I know
I have to let you go
somehow
but for now
just hold my hand
Follow
is what you’ve always wanted
and what you think you needed
although
it seems that you can’t take me
to where you wanted to be
it’s alright
Just know
that when you let go of my hand
i’d understand, i understand
So fly free
and if you look back and see me
just wave goodbye and i’ll be
i’ll be alright
i’m tired of crying but i can’t stop
it’s getting harder to breathe, to see
to remember my life before this
jealous of my past, of what was once me
spiralling downwards, infinite fall
slippery holds, slimy wall
it’s getting harder to breathe
and i still have tears
There’s a leech unseen
Sucking out all the life in me
Stuck on my skin
and i’m going… going… gone
and i can’t find me
how much can i endure before i snap
how much death can i contain before i rot
how much before i’m not
too much and now i’m not
Stand still
let the world pass you by
let it spin and watch it unravel before your eyes
now see the truth that hides behind the chaos
there’s beauty still
all’s not lost
***dreams are what keep people going
at least the good ones would
what if you don’t have them?
what if you had them and they died?
is that your red signal?
your lights out?
***people have dreams
i have them too
should i rejoice then?
you see, when i wake up,
i don’t remember the dream
i just remember the bad feeling.
i cut myself deeply, and let hot blood flow
i can’t believe there’s so much warmth within me
why then do i always feel so cold
i rejoice in the momentary comfort
no, call it ecstasy
and then shiver in winter’s swift return
My love, My roses, My tears, Rain, My love
I’m grabbing roses in the air,
or at least I’m trying to.
They just go through my fingers.
No wonder!
They’ve become rain, somehow.
So I drink it in.
Sweet, like nectar,
(Now, why doesn’t that surprise me?)
Mingled with bitter tears, that makes it more so.
Even before you began slipping through my fingers,
you’ve been untouchable.
I tried and found out, to my utter sorrow,
that to do so exacts a price in blood.
And did I mind?
No.
I was so willing to give up more than that.
Why do you have to appear at the most inopportune moment?
I swear, you have the worst timing!
And so stubborn!
Always, when i do not want you seen
you come out of hiding.
you humiliate me!
I guess that’s how it’ll always be between us.
But, at least , you are mine.
Now, you, i can never call mine.
You’ll come and you’ll go as you please.
But always when you come,
everything else disappears.
Things that seem important lose their significance.
So, I stay where I am
to catch every drop of you that falls.
I like the feel of you on my skin.
Until I get soaked.
Then I realize that your touch is so cold.
You are
My roses
You are Rain
My bittersweet pain.
